Lavin

25th of dec…merry christmas….hehe..but i still need to work…whatever lar…actually nothing to write also..but since a week i din write anything…so today juz sajo sajo only..today is the 7 days i worked…a week already lo…not really use to it yet..but i hope i have no problem wit that….

22th of dec….

i went out wit ah suk today…hehe..so happy…4 of us went out to have our dinner at 10pm coz i finished my work around 8sth…only me,miss low(ah suk ex student),ah bak and ah suk…nearly 10pm we reached ah suk house..he was waiting for us liao…scold us for being late..hehe..working ma..our first station was at AYAM MAS…me and ah suk ate chicken rice..ah bak had his steak and miss low tried the AYAM MAS new recipe…we no need to pay leh..hehe…then after that me and ah suk went to next shop to had BELUT pulok…this ah suk really kuat makan..ah bak is full so he din eat and miss low cant eat food is spicy coz ah suk order BELUT cook is ‘pipet’ style…hehe…so only me and ah suk sapu all…around 12 we went to ah suk house…talking ‘fei hua’…never think that ah suk also can talk one…it was really a happy day for me…

today 20th noh..i should write sth about christams…but here christmas or no is still the same…ok la…everybody out there….MERRY CHRISTMAS

Today was my first day of working…wor…damn tired..start working at 10am until 8pm but got when we wanna close the shop still got a cuople buying goods…at last i went home at 9pm…what la..today worked as a cashier…this is a job that i never try before…working at a home decor mart…wor…i also duno can learn wat working there..but i knew wat i had learn today..sweeping floor,koyaing and most important learn to SMILE…wonder why? coz everyone there is with a smiling face…whenever they go whoever they meet juz SMILE..but one thing i scare is about the cashier work…i m so scare about the money money things…scare scan wrong ,click wrong and count wrong…haha… everyone there keep asking me whether i m ok wit that job or not…erm..i really duno la…no answer for that but i told them OK LOR…got lor at the back mean i also not sure..actually i not really like that job..i never think that i can work there also..at first i juz went to interview for sajo only..then duno y the manager ask me to work the next day…so fast…Haiz…that shop is really big even got a lift inside it….ground floor sell candle,flower,glasses….second floor sell flower and those bakul bakul things kua(not sure also coz i never been there yet) and the second floor sell malay people weeding stuff..haha..really a big shop rite…erm..about the staff…i think chinese also quite much…all the staff very friendly..i have no problem wit that…another thing i dun like is there is no much restaurant to eat….near the place juz have a few malay warung..i went for my lunch at 3pm today…guess wat…there are nothing left for me….the price is also very mahal…wonder how only a warung but can sell thing so expensive…ok now is my bath time..later wanna go sleep lo..hope tomorow will be a good day for me… (CASHIER~~~DIE)

I went out yam cha last night…wit ah chong,ah ken,ah bak,ah yub,yin fong and ah khang.. nearly forget got teck siong also…we met at ah khang house first then wait for hui ken to join us..we waited him for a long time..haiz…he still the same..always LATE..hehe..after that we went to ea chicken chop near ah khang house..it was my first time there…the chicken chop is quite cheap but one bad thing is there are many people smoking…AIR POLUTION…we talked about many things last nite..but the most intersting is bout ah bak job..he juz started to work then only he realized that the shop play truant to their cuntomer…he told us that many malay customer were cheated…pity them..so he decided not to work at that shop already…smart ah bak..

I reached home about 12++…after finished my bath i went to sleep…but for the whole night i cant close my eyes juz like wat i told ah chong everynight i will golek here and there on my bed…today also same…but after that something happen..

About 2++…my phone ring..a number that i dunno appear….i pick up the phone and was shocked when i hear a sound that i waited for so long…at first he was so worried about my exam..and i told him my exam finished long time ago and i have no confident to score a good result…who is he? he is a guy that accompany me go through everything..although he is not my by side…but a call and a message for him means a lot to me..the last time i recieved his call was when he found a new job..that time he was so happy but after that i din get any of his call…since then i waited for his call so long..everytime i called him everytime i will disappointed…i am so worried and wondering is it anything happen to him…a time waited so long at last reach…he called…we started to talk and talk…having a great time..but then i dunno since when we started to cried…both of us cry..i told him that for the past few years i was the one who will only cried for the guy…but now on 13DEC..a guy cried for me…a thing that i never imagine about appear in my life..guess wat i was the one who ask him not to cry coz everytime i cried he was the one who make me laugh again..but today totally DIFFERENT..i m glad he cried for me..at least in this world there is still someone who is willing to cry for me…a guy that i love so much…darling thanks you so much

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Yesterday was a really big suprise day for me…wondering why? haha…coz my two brothers came to find me and celebrate my birthday…although is  bit earlier..but i really happy…two of them (yik long and kar poh) really a good brothers..they accompany me when i was sad..when i was alone..and everything..i first know them was when we were at jamboree..for yik long..my first impression for him is he is my form5 classmate’s brother..i still remember that time i always forget what is his name..since from that i call him as small kids in chinese..haha..untill now i still put his name as small kids bro in my phone..we alomost spend out time together before exam…library is the place where we meet…library library library…we study and having our dinner together…i did had fun that time…i still remember last time when i was study at library..he will buy me a hamburger as my dinner…sometime a pepsi and milo as well…haha…. He is leaving to kl soon…my life will be different without him…Another brother is my form6 classmate’s cousin..he is a good brother also…caring,friendly….he always message me and asking how i am now…i think he wanna bake cake for my birthday also…coz this few days always asking me how to bake cake and is it true that i gonna bake my birthday cake by myself…haha..aiyo…dun worry la..birthday without birthday cake is not a big deal…i will learn to celebrate my big day(actually is not very big also..it juz a usual day) alone..

Anyway..to both my lovely bro..take care and all the best..i will be here for u all as u all will me here for me everytime..and thanks for the present also..i love it so much..muakss

Last nite i went out wit my f5 classmate…i was fun coz we seldom have time to be together since we graduate last 3 years…

At 7sth ..ah chong came to fetch me then we meet others at pantai timur chicken chop there….although it juz got a few people only but i think most of us really have a lot of fun….when me and ah chong reach there…ah joo and ken already there..then ah bak,sik wei,yin fong came…we started to talk a lot even when eating the chicken shop also still talking…last nite chicken chop luckily got ah bak help me to eat some also coz i said i must eat finish all if not my future husband will be ugly…hehe.this is wat sim teach me coz everytime we went to eat together…dunno wat she said she is true or not…after finished we went to walk at pasar malam,the store and pantai timur…After 10pm we went to yam cha….me and ah chong went to fetch siang loang..we really waited him for a quite long time infront of his house coz ah chong message him but he din see it…i said wanna go shout for ah loang but ah chong said scare disturb people..after waited for him about 20minutes at last at last ah chong called him also…ah loang still look same but got a bit more leng chai liao lo…haha…then we meet others at kopitiam but there are too many people…so we change place to Edy..at there really talk talk talk…having a lot of fun..around 12sth we went back lo…

Although juz spend a few our wit them (ah chong,ah joo,ken,ah bak,sik wei.yin fong,wei khang,ah loang) but i really happy…guys…thanks ya..especially wit ah loang and yin fong..coz we seldom have much time and chance to meet them…thanks for coming out wit us…i think we will meet only during CNY liao lo…but anyway…all the best to them and hope to see them soon..

Mama sick 3 days already including today…I m so worry about her..Last night i company her to clinic..Wow..too many people until we need to wait about 2 hours..but what make me n mama so funny is that when we were at there waiting for our turn she feel better and better…she told me that and i said the clinic got something that will make the patient recover without meeting the doctor..haha…after that we went to shop to help papa…but pity mama coz she still need to drive even she is not feeling well…at papa shop they are not much customer there..it look so quiet..then i think and realize that papa work so hard to make us live better..he wants us to have a better live…but i cant help him in anything…feel so sorry..he really put a lot of effort in it.. i really hope we can pass through this time…and for mama so sorry that i never take good care of her until she is sick now…i really mean it..i hope i have the chance to make thing better.. Papa mama..i really love u all ….juz tht i m quite malu and never say i love u all it doesnt mean that i dun love u at all…..for my papa and mama…i know u all work so hard for it..and now is my responsibility to take care of this family..i will make sure that everything is ok…

Third of dec….i still doing nothing at home…so bored…think to find a job but never take any move yet…Whole day at home doing the same things only…after wake up doing housework…watching tv…online…koya..think this and that..that is what i do for my routine…getting sick of it.

This few days i really think too much…feel to find a fren to talk but dunno who i should ask to…i juz cant stop thinking how if my result is too teruk..how if i cant get to study in local U…should i go to take my result then….will i embarrass my parent when result come out then….so much question come out in a time..after think n think i still cant find a way out of this and cant stopt thinking bout it…someone please help me…i feel so confuse about this and myself also…sometime i think negative abut my result but in the other hand i wan to sucess to achieve my dream…aiyo..i also duno wat i am writing now….juz dun understand why why why i always think NEGATIVE….. somebody HELP…